I listen to Christian radio and one day I heard a blurb that hit me pretty hard: Is your life giving glory to God at every moment? And by glory, the speaker meant, praise and honor.
Now, I try hard to be a positive witness of my faith. But I'm also a witness to the suffering life of faith, and that's where I'm not sure I'm giving praise to God. I never praise Him for my sufferings, but I offer plenty of laments.
I just can't seem to accept my sufferings because they feel like too many for someone so young.
One day at work I was struggling with my chronic disease. I felt fatigued, my joints hurt, I was struggling to concentrate, and I just wanted to go sleep. I just wanted a cure, a miracle. I turned to John 11:4 in my mini bible and was surprised to see: This sickness will not end in death, but for the glory of God.
Here I am reminded that God wants to use my sufferings for His glory. I'm not sure how He's going to do that, but should have faith that He will.
And so I pray that each moment of my life gives Him glory, even my deepest sufferings. Even this sickness. May it all give Him praise and honor in His mysterious ways.