You Want Me to Do What?

Look Lord, my life is already too much to handle, you know I am crying for no reason out of the blue it seems--and You want me to write a book!!

"Well, for just those reasons, write a book!"

As always, the 'Physician' knows best for God knows me well and writing is the way to open my heart to all within.

You see, prior to retirement and our upcoming travels in our RV, I find myself over whelmed with sadness and frustration as my husband and I prepare for this 'wonderful' life on the road. We have already had some 'ahem' adventures in the RV, and it is work along with the fun. It is also being more patient because of close proximity to your loved one 24/7. (I know you know what I mean.)

Because of a strong ongoing relationship with God, I turn to Him for discernment as I always have done in the past. God speaks to my heart to go back to my many journals written over the course of our marriage. Going back and remembering lessons taught before, I am led to believe that all the answers to my continued anxiety and fears will be found there in those journals. I reluctantly do so, for the marriage and the past contain memories of a highly dysfunctional family life, and “Who wants to be reminded of that!”

Not only was I to go back and review those journals--the Holy Spirit tells me it is time to write the story of my journey with my husband Bob. For many times over the years, I had cried out in prayer, “Do something Lord, change him like you did Saint Paul! Do something!” God does, but you will not believe what God has to do to “change that man,” and answer my prayer of despair.

So in obedience, the book was written and it is our story, taken from entries in the journals and from the experiences which occur as we travel in our RV. Working in His mysterious ways, God goes to great extremes to bring about the necessary change and healing to our wounded hearts. To my astonishment, as we travel, as I write-- the two ‘journeys’ connect as Wisdom and Understanding enter in, and both of us become ‘coupled once more by God’s design.’

You will find that as unbelievable as it seems, your own life, to a certain degree, is found in “My Journey, My Cross—As the Journals End.” Many have already told me this as they read the book.

This book is available from Westbow Press or Amazon, or Barnes and Noble. It will be found under my pen name--Beth Ana. If you are in need of answers to your own troubled marriage or 'why do I do what I do--or why does he do what he does'--read this book.