What a challenge this poses to us. What if God wants us where we really don’t want to go? What if it’s difficult? What if it tests our Virtues? What if it’s just downright unpleasant and hurtful? How do we know what is right and how do we discern God’s true calling for us?
My co-worker recently made the comment to me, that no God would want me to work with people of questionable virtue and moral action. I pondered on this. It seemed reasonable at first. That “reasonableness“ caused me much distress. I suffered through some very challenging emotions and thoughts; and I still am.
Upon reflection though, it seems that maybe I am right where I need to be. Maybe my magnification of the love of Christ is needed where I am. Perhaps the people I am surrounded by on a daily basis are the reason for my existence there.
Yes, it is difficult, and messy. My feelings get hurt. I get frustrated. And the people that I am with and the environment that I exist in can make me feel bad.
But, it really isn’t all about me!
God’s work is about serving others and that is its own reward. The road less traveled is presumably the more difficult and treacherous. I guess I shouldn’t fight it so much, and keep looking elsewhere so diligently. When it is time for me to move on, God will direct me down my new path. I hope that it is an easier one, but it seems that God is not about easy, he is about righteousness and truth. God’s light will shine most brightly in the darker spaces. I guess someone needs to carry it there.
When I reflect upon the history of our glorious Church, I understand it wasn’t easy for any of God’s light bearers. That quickly restores perspective.
So, St. Michael the Archangel, be with me amongst the spiritual warfare I live within. Don’t let my light be extinguished in a weak moment. Stifle my doubts and discouraged heart. Don’t let those around me decrease my fortitude. Keep me strong and faithful; and on the path that Christ is laying before me.
Let my light shine bright wherever I go; for all to see. Because, doesn’t the song proclaim that “they will know we are Christians by our love”; and I believe by our deeds as well.