Betray Jesus? NO-Never!!
It ain’t easy being a dreamer! Many were the times that dreams came in the night. Vivid dreams, sometimes in color, with distinct details that left a deep memory of the dream in my mind. Upon waking these dreams would go into my journals and prayer would be prayed for an interpretation. God does speak to us in dreams. There is no doubt about this, for I have seen them come true, and also have found the connection to what God wanted me to learn from the dream. Scripture speaks of this, and tells of dreams that are sent to give complete wisdom about a situation or perhaps a need to change or be aware of an attitude that needed to be addressed in a person’s life. Sometimes dreams are prophetic and speak of things to come or that will happen in the world.
One of my dreams was a simple dream of a stark blue sky, a rocket climbing high and then curving and then exploding. I remember awakening and blurting out—“oh that poor teacher.” This came a few weeks before the actual dream became reality as the first civilian rode with astronauts toward space, a teacher, whose dream ended in an explosion that killed all. There was no satisfaction in knowing that that dream was prophetic as the television replayed the same image on the screen and all cried for a courageous teacher who dared to dream such a big dream and live it.
A month before 9/11, there was a very detailed dream about a great cloud of what I thought was water coming over New York City and then eventually spreading out over the whole country as all felt the effect of this cloud. In the dream all VIP and clergy gathered at St. Patrick’s Cathedral to pray and then later at a stadium to gather to try to deal with the great cloud that had covered New York.
Then, one December, there was a dream of great flooding that devastated a city and took businesses down to the foundation, and leaving only a way of rescuing coming from big machinery/God’s help to bring the people over to the safe side. That was the December of the great Tsunami, and later Katrina. Then I had another dream the month before the hurricane hit about people knocking on my Texas home wanting “child support” and they would not go away, they persisted in their efforts to come into our home. They knocked down the cement walls of our porch, and were shooting shotguns in the air. (Remember the aftermath of the floods in New Orleans?) In the dream I finally let them in, knowing it would be for a long-term period of care.
When you have the prophetic dreams, it frustrates you, for what do you do with them? The only thing you can do, but most important thing is pray about what is to come, for whom can you alert to the upcoming events? For who would believe you? 0 Lord, guide and lead me, it is not for me to question but to obey. But God it ain’t easy being a dreamer.
“You think it was easy being Me?” That inner Voice speaks gently within, and I know not to complain again.
“Okay then Lord, I will dream on.”
Today December 3, 2009—I must speak of a dream I had last night. It seems that there was a television show where little toddlers came to compete in a game made especially for them. They would push a plunger down and squirt something like icing out. The one who could push the plunger down the quickest in the same allotted time would win. This one child came up to walk into the special plastic area/space where the controls were set up. He was so big and heavy that the large game area fell over and he did too. But he got up and then proceeded to try to compete. As he finished the first round, there was a tunnel he was to crawl through to go to the next step. However due to his size and overweight condition he could not and was taken out of the competition. His mother took his hand. He was huge, close to 400 lbs. She is a beautiful blonde haired woman, but I am very concerned about the child and am hollering at her—“You must put him on a diet, he must lose weight or he will die
She, however is in denial and says he is ok
“No he is not; look at his knees and what this weight is doing to him!” I continue to be angry and holler at her. Then I start in on her weight and loudly fume at her about her weight and how she is going to die also if she doesn’t lose the weight! She looks at me very tearfully and says, “Can you help me?”
I know this dream is about my husband and me. We are both overweight and ultimately this will cause us to die an earlier death that what God may have planned for us. We are both using food as a source of comfort to stress or boredom. Bob especially likes his sweets. Sometimes as I watch him eat, he eats fast and without pleasure as if he is trying to stuff and bury a hidden hurt inside himself. I eat the same way myself, eating without enjoying and even noticing that I am eating. Sometimes hurts try to surface and we silence them with food, like a baby would with that bottle or his thumb.
It was the next dream that had me praying ‘WHAT TO DO WITH THIS.” This dream which came in 2009 was a prophetic dream and I knew it. Before going to sleep I had read Psalm 18, which spoke of thanksgiving for help and victory. This is a long Psalm with a lot of reference to events that describes an earthquake or huge volcano erupting and the wrath of God. It also speaks of God helping his people and pulling them out of deep water, strengthening them for war, giving them feet like hinds feet for high places, and on and on. I would have to write it in its entirety. But the dream was so detailed about destruction that came from a collapse of something like a dam that sends a massive wall of water or mud down over the land, leaving everything in its wake destroyed. The Roloffs or the dwarfs or little people who have a show on TV are in it, and he is talking about I don’t know what we will have to do, Perhaps the car crushing company will have to be responsible for they had something to do with this collapse. They also say they have called on all of their friends who have come to their aid to help them walk and search for people who have been hurt and support them in their hour of distress. President Obama and his wife, Michelle are walking among the damaged areas which looks like huge sections of highways going downhill in ripples, all broken and pushed up in layers like that which happens in an earthquake.
One could interpret this simply as to what is happening today in our government. The little people are very concerned about a big collapse of something that is related to some car company and it has caused a total destruction of our infrastructures or the highways broken and lying in rippled waves. This destruction leaves major damage and upheaval, and all in its wake all going downhill. But, because of previous dreams that spoke of massive catastrophes, I just know that sometime in the future, this dream would come true and the words of Psalm 18 fulfilled. (The Roloffs live in Portland Oregon)
What concerns me is the fact that the first day camping at Big Bend we were given Psalm 51 and 52 and the one line that tells us to depart from this place, but not in haste, but to depart. But there was another detail that also caused me to wonder about the message of this dream.
This morning as I looked for the Psalm I read previously the night before, I passed by a notation written in another Psalm that spoke of a dream I had 05/12/07. I take the time to look this dream up in her journals.
“I had a dream—started with BC, Rose and Marie and myself getting into a car and going to Morrilton on highway 10. (Oh, I think, Highway 10 will be traveled on soon as we head west.) We are commenting on BC’s driving which is good, but has a lot of quick movements. This driving is like his and my lifestyles I think. We are driving in a city and turn right. The car is acting up, prior to this, stalling out. After Brian makes a corner he is out of site, and comes back without the car. After this, we travel down a hill into a flooded area like watering rushing over the road. We manage to get to the other side and come out on a highway and start pulling people out of the water to safety. It is then that Oprah Winfrey comes into the dream and is standing beside me and introduces me as this very prayerful person, a person of great knowledge on faith. I start to talk about heaven here on earth and people are asking me where I have my church.
In writing down this dream and asking for interpretation, I am left wondering if I finally see God’s plan unfold for me to be a teacher of faith, and a person of prayer that brings people through cleansing water and back onto high ground. It is already a reality for that is who I am; I just don’t realize how much God is already using me every day in small ways to do just that.
This is a good dream and I do hope I don’t forget it. Help me Holy Spirit to remember all my dreams. After opening the Bible after writing the dream down, I read Psalms 45 and 46, Vs 17-18 of chapter 45 and all of 46. Especially verse 4 speaks of raging waters. But God is in the midst; ‘it’ shall not be disturbed; God will help ‘it’ at the break of dawn. God’s Holy City is the ‘It.’ Even though nations are in turmoil, kingdom’s totter, His voice resounds the earth melts away. The Lord of lords is with us.
Just two pages prior to that entry is yet still another dream from 01/25/07 dealing with flooding in what seems to be gulf area and Florida all the way to the Banana Republic. The flooding comes from what seem to be a tsunami type wave. There is a rescue effort for a girl and a black dog in a boat. The girl is rescued by a lot of people’s love, and was found because the water recedes showing the street signs that guided them to her. She is hungry but there is formula found on a shelf in the boat. (The interpretation for that is, “the formula for life is there to be used, just get it off the shelf.”)
Mercy, Lord, have mercy. I have been given three dreams about flooding, or a great cleansing that is to come—well then, if this is to be so, come Lord Jesus come. Come Holy Spirit come. Didn’t I just pray that last night listening to the roar of the wind outside?
God, what would I do without all the dreams you have sent. Yes, some are disturbing Lord, but with prayer and guidance You always give me peace of mind with the interpretation that follows. They are just like a message sent from Scripture. Very important and very much needing to be paid attention too. It is in my sleep that my mind is totally Yours, and I cannot interrupt what You are trying to speak to my heart. Thank You God for continuing to reach out and speak to us in Your love for us---may our ears and our hearts hear and heed what You say. Especially Lord--"I am Love, live in love, so that I may live in You."