Recently I wrote an article about facing health problems and the conflict of staying sick so you can stop working and going on disability—OR—asking God, believing God’s promises –and pray for healing of all that is wearing me down, and causing discomfort in my daily life. Well, as always God gave me the wisdom and the healing needed, and started the healing that will continue.
I went to the Arkansas Charismatic Conference, with three desires in my heart. Heal me of what is causing me to be stressed out dearest Jesus. Heal my eyes, my arthritic hips, shoulders, knees and all else that is causing problems, heart and digestive system. And, most importantly Lord lead and guide me to a closer walk with You in my prayer life.
Prior to going to the Conference, I knew God was preparing me by allowing me to experience all the side effects of stress, the eye symptoms, and allowing me to see how despicable this over worked person can be. Like a woman two weeks before delivery, I was going through a lot of mental upheaval and physical discomfort.
God was sending me clues too, to get me ready—the biggest one was 'healing is preceded by FORGIVENESS.' So I started to think, go to Confession—but I was not able to do so before leaving Friday. I did however start to think on all the areas that I knew needed to change in my attitude, and behavior. My eating habits have regressed back to eating on the run again and instead of sitting at the table, slow chewing, small bites and no distractions. Slow down—was one of the clues that came with messages from two friends ---- be at peace.
So, it was that Friday as I headed to the registration table in the hotel—I was given the first grace of the many that were to come that weekend. I passed a room, the door open, and my eye saw a dear friend—Father Mark, with a stole over is shoulders facing an empty chair. GOD IS SO GOOD!! Confession was brought to me in the first minute of the conference. After listening to me, Father said for your penance, go before Jesus and give Him the biggest area of my stress. I laughed and said Bob—or rather married life as you grow older. Every aging married couple knows what I mean.
As the weekend progressed, the next message through the talks and God incidents---spoke of the importance of WORSHIP in your prayer life—as this brings you into a straight connection to heaven. Scripture backs this up. God also reminded me of how important it was to include the Blessed Mother in my prayer life as my partner, interceding for my family who are lost children. (As we all are)
As for as the healings asked for—He got the message to my heart that “I will heal the physical, when you obey what I am telling you to do. It is a total package, I cannot heal what is outside until you obey My instructions to heal what is on the inside. Forgive, be at peace, live in faith and ONE with Me. One in mind, heart and giving of yourself in My love to those in your life and all I bring you too. Be my servant, and Trust in Me.”
Then there were the messages given through the people—all confirmed the inner messages that God had been speaking to my heart.
So, it is that my new life begins—and holding that tantalizing carrot in front of this stubborn mule, God leads me, guides me, gives me the graces needed, and taking my cross that is over burdening me, carries the load as He walks beside me, that comforting hand of His around my shoulders, giving me His perfect peace. Again always with the gentle reminder—it is up to me to choose to obey what I have taught you about living a healthy life, and being emotionally at peace. So—not so tough of a decision at all, for when we give it all to God, as He promises, He will give us the REST or Peace that is beyond all understanding.