Searching for God in the midst of doubt and confusion
Amending our failure because of Sin
We always are aware of how small our approach to God’s grace is when no matter how much we ask for forgiveness, he quickly responds. But each time we receive his mercy we fail again as if we didn’t understand the love he gave us. It seems like a paradox that never stops yet there is no other way to keep in his grace than to accept our weakness and seek his forgiveness.
It can become a never-ending cycle where sin likely creeps into our human mind and takes control of our flesh placing us at the mercy of an evil we cannot explain. How wonderful it would be if this entity which is against God’s Will could just drop out of existence. There is a simple explanation of this drama that is like Napoleon’s Waterloo. When everything around us appears to be going well there suddenly is a drop from grace that can destroy our success.
It is an old but necessary element that God knew we would need to achieve eternal life with him. Of course it is Free Will. Perhaps most of us see this identity over and over regarding our choice of sin over God, but without it we would sink into oblivion.
Why did God decide to bless each one of his children with such a confusing gift that without a careful decision and Sanctifying Grace it would consume us. It is his generous Wisdom that encompasses our weakness and guides our will to find him here in a human proliferation. With that understanding we are able to find a pathway to God through our own desire.
If our expectation of being accepted into eternity with God is a simple blessing that God will grant to everyone, it is an erroneous belief that he is guiding us without an effort on our part. God’s gifts are free but not without some human correlation from us. Free will is a way of making a choice to reach God in eternity. However, the choice of evil inclinations now has a way of corrupting our decisions.
Within the essence of God’s Omnipotence lies the array of an eternal completion reserved for saints and angels. The saints are us joining those already residing in heaven’s comfort and holiness worshiping God and his comfort with a love no one can identify until we arrive. One important factor is none of us is capable of bringing our sins with us. It will not be allowed. That means our task of finding the positive side of Free Will is paramount with finding grace that comes through faith and then keeping close to Christ who prepared this way to the Father through his Cross.
Remember the words Jesus handed to St. Paul: “Therefore, so that I might not become too elated, a thorn in the flesh was given to me, an angel of Satan, to beat me, to keep me from being too elated. Three times I begged the Lord about this, that it might leave me, but he said, “My grace is sufficient for you, for power is made perfect in weakness.” (1 Cor 12: - 9). This is perhaps the most profound scripture that reminds us that it is total trust in the grace we shall find when we rely on the free will to reach into God’s mercy.
Ralph B. Hathaway