Communicate with God

A few mornings ago I was talking with God and I said, "I need to tell you how I feel. I need to empty myself of all that I feel right now. I want You to know every ounce of feeling that I have in me right now." That felt really good!

Even though God knows all, that doesn't mean that we should not communicate to our Father about how we feel. After telling God of how I felt and emptying myself of it all to Him, He said, "You're scared, but with Me all is possible." When I heard those words I was instantly relieved of all that I was feeling - all the worries and upsets - and I was brought back to the point of knowing that I am not defined by any of those anxious thoughts, but by the love of our Father God, Whom is love, mercy, joy, and peace! I was relieved and filled with peace.

I've been in this situation for a very long time and just want to give up on it, but I've invested so much love into it that it's hard to just walk away and I don't know if that is God's will. Every day I tell God, "I'll do it today, if that's Your will." But no.... I'm really selfish, I told God, "I'm so selfish that I'm 99% sure that I want to do this, but there's 1% that isn't - and that 1% is You!" That 1% trumps it all because it's love through the Holy Spirit and more valuable than anything else.

So I've started to say, "Ok, I'm here. I've been here for a long time. I'm spiritually miserable right now. Prepare me. Use me. All that I'm doing is Yours." And He does. Some days I try to act like a cry baby and say to God, 'Why here? Why me? Why now?', then somebody is placed in front of me that is deeply hurting and He tells me, "Patience, comfort, and love." Then I know why I'm there and what I'm supposed to do.

It's important to be still because God will speak to you in the stillness, and He will make Himself known to you just how you need it - in a way that is only for you. We're all created with an infinite love that cannot be broken, no matter how hard we try to break it, to ignore it or to avoid it, because God never turns from us. If He didn't love us, He simply wouldn't have created us. Communicating with our Father God is the most important priority in our relationship with Him.

Every prayer we have ever said has been answered or will be. Even the prayers we whisper under our breaths, the prayers we think of but don't take them seriously, and the prayers that are hidden deep in our hearts that we're scared to say.

I always tell Mitchell, "You need to tell me how you feel. I know that you might be sad or mad and happy, but I still want you to tell me how you feel and why. You can just say, 'Mom, I'm mad because...' and tell me. It helps me to be a better parent for you." So I think the same thing about God - even though He is our omnipotent Father - I don't believe that means that He doesn't want to speak with us whom are all His children - and that He looks down on us saying, 'Why doesn't she learn the first time!'

Through the Holy Spirit, He sent His only Son to be born as an infant of a poor girl. He approaches us in simple and humble ways to let us know that He is always present and comes down to a level that we can understand because He loves us. Our relationship with God is first and above all others, but like all, it's built through communication. Through communication comes truth, trust, faithfulness, joy, love, mercy, and peace. Like all relationships it is also tested. So be prepared by reading scripture, receiving the sacraments, confession, and asking for the intercession of the Blessed Virgin Mary. My son and I consecrated ourselves to Jesus through Our Lady of Guadalupe today and we learned to ask for her intercession in everything - to do the will of God, because only she does it perfectly and unites us fully to Jesus through consecration.

Don't be afraid to tell God exactly everything that is on your mind and in your heart. He knows well, and more than you, of it all but He still wants you to communicate to Him. Through communication He knows that you want a relationship with Him. There have been times when I've thought to myself (but God is always listening), 'I'm embarrassed by this. God knows that I'm embarrassed so I don't need to tell Him.' Then it kept coming up in my thoughts so I finally told God and how I felt about it. He took it from me and gave me love that can never be broken. He revealed the existence of His infinite love and that it's not just obtainable in heaven - it's real now and it exists in me, through me, and with me - with all of us. I'm not afraid to speak with God about anything and I make moments in my day, even just a few seconds, to tell God how I'm doing. Sometimes it goes, with a big sigh, "I'm tired. I shouldn't have stayed up late." Then someone walks into my office. In the book of Genesis chapter 3, verse 9, "Then the Lord God called to man and said where are you?" So God wants to know where we are and calls to us. I don't do the will of God perfectly and I'm usually lost, so I want God to know where I am - spiritually, physically, and emotionally.