HOW HIGH IS THE WATER, MAMMA?
ALL THAT I AM
Last Saturday, I went to a Catholic Charismatic event:"Preparing for Pentecost." At the event, there were great talks, and a healing service too. I went believing and asking God for a TOTAL healing of my body. At 76, 50lbs overweight, I suffer with every step, pain of arthritis in every joint even the feet. I have hearing loss, poor vision, and oh, no: "Not some memory problems!!!"
I went believing in the God's Promises and in His faithful love. What I recieved was "More." More of all the gifts of the Holy Spirit that will enable me to serve the Lord MORE!
First insight and or 'word of wisdom', was this profound Message from Jesus' inner Voice. "All that I am, (me), is the I AM! ALL, dear ones, all that is a part of my life from the beginning and now going to the end ---ALL is a part of His Plan for my salvation. Not only my salvation, but the salvation of others who long to know the peace and joy of God's Presence in their life and in this world that we now live in.
"All need to know what is going on." All need to know, now what you know."
Each of us, as we age, can be more frustrated, impatient, angry, tired and weary---well you know! For we all are walking that same walk to Jerusalem and Calvary, and evently to our death. But, we also know that after this death will come the Resurrection of our body and soul. Yes, God yes we believe!!
So, beloved of God, no matter how despondant you are, no matter how discouraged, how guilty you feel about past mistakes, NO MATTER what you feel!! The outcome of your life now is now at this moment in time---All that you are is a masterpiece created by God, step by step, piece by piece, chip by chip--you are the seed sewn. You are the bread, blessed broken and given by grace of God and God alone. When or if we are angry at life--and turn our backs to God in that anger---"Come back to Me with all your hearts, and let not anger and fear, any pain keep Us apart. Long have I loved you and long have I waited for your coming home again to live Our new life."
Words from another song---"All that I am, all that I do, all that I ever have, I offer now to You. All that I dream, all that I pray, all that I make---I give to You today.
Take and sanctify these gifts, for Your Honor Lord. Knowing that I love and serve you is enough reward."
I left Saturday, with no physical healing, what I recieved was greater!! I was led to once more---surrender all of my life to God. Like Mary, a total YES was given so the Holy Spirit would enter into my being---allowing the Holy Spirit to make this barren woman, more fruitful with the love of Jesus.
I recieved-- More of what God really wanted and knew I needed! Healing of the mind, the heart, and the spirit. He blessed me with greater Wisdom, Understanding, Knowledge, and Discernment. God blessed me with deeper love for all who suffer and a deeper desire to pray for their healings--the total healing that can only come with KNOWING that "All that I am is the I Am living in me."
So, beloved. let us rejoice and be glad, in ALL things give thanks, and pray without ceasing--even if all that we pray is "Help, Jesus, help, or come Holy Spirit.
Oh, as for the physical pains, they are our hidden stigmatas and St. Padre Pio suffered for 50 years with his visible stigmatas-didn't he. Be still and know the Peace that passeth all Understanding in ALL the life that we live every moment of the day. "I AM with you--not I Was, or I Will be--but in the NOW--I AM!!"
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About the Author
Born the youngest of nine children, raised VERY Catholic across the street from Immaculate Heart of Mary church and school—Mom and Dad led by example and word their FAITH in God and saw to it that I was given 12 years of Catholic Education. (Mount St. Mary’s Academy/1965)
But, most importantly, because of my parents’ spiritual renewal after attending Cursillo Weekends, I too went on a retreat at our beloved Subiaco Abbey in Arkansas and there, at age 20, gave my life totally, surrendering all to my Lord and best Friend. This was my “Pentecostal” event that left me, like all the early Christians, on fire with God’s love and forever changed.
My husband Robert and I have been married for 52 this year in a marriage arranged by God. We have 8 children, two in heaven, 24 grandchildren, and 15 great-grandchildren. The story of our life together can be found in a book titled “My Journey, My Cross-As the Journals End,” published by Westbow Press . Our life together has been one awesome up and down roller coaster ride which enriched my heart with so many of the gifts of the Holy Spirit. I have found that the only way, Wisdom, Understanding, Words of Knowledge, Discernment, and Healing can be received is first by experiencing in your life the hurts of others. (and you yourself a sword will pierce)* so that the thoughts of many hearts may be revealed.” Luke 2 v 35.
God has blessed me also many other talents and skills--but sometimes, blessings/gifts can and have caused problems or conflict in my life, as I am human and all too quickly that part of me shows up. Thank You God that You also show up!
Because of the many ways that He has rescued me, and taught me through my trials and tribulations and continuous cries for “Help”--- a weekly podcast radio show called “It’s Me, God” can still be found on www.radiotitans.com
