Irritability and forgiveness

Gosh! I've been irritable lately! It goes in flashes. Hits me, and then leaves me in the dust. It's not very often. It's probably because I'm tired. Yes, I'm trying to legitimize it again.

     My mother always said,"Watch out! Be on guard! That old devil will attack when you're very, very tired!". I love her! She was so intuitive. She was simple and earnest in her knowledge of things not of this world. Religious instruction and role modeling was done and seen through my eyes by watching her.

     Unfortunately in that aspect though, I'm more like my father. He was such a good man. A hard working and loving father and husband. But if you crossed him, he would show you his might in the demeanor of his uprightness. Always being able to connect the right and powerful words for the certain situation. He grew up in the depression, and his family was "Poor". Him and his brother probably had to take on responsibilities that no child should ever have to take on. So he probably learned at a young age, how to take certain Control of certain Situations. I wish I could be as he was with finding the perfect words. I have the fire, but not the quickness... Ugh...

     I don't worry about it too much though. My God is so patient with me and let's me accept the humility that often follows irritability. I will never claim to be perfect and I thank and praise God that He still loves me. Even after so many irritabilities. After so many times realizing I needed picking up. Because I fell, and scratched my knees...