Dear Friend

     How can I tell you I love you? How many times can I say I'm sorry for the times I ignored you? My sorrow lies deeply embedded within my soul. Yet I continue to take this chance of life for granted. I cave with my emotions. My pride gets the best of me. Yet you still return to me with all the love your heart can give. I am not worthy of such love. All of the times I talked about you and then walked away hanging my head in sorrow because of my sin. Forgive me a thousand times. Forgive this foolish human who still acts like a stubborn child. You are my sister, my brother, my mother, my father, my friend, my Jesus. 

     I publicly proclaim my love for you. I scream from the rooftops in sheer desperation like a child scolded for my wrongdoing. I am not worthy of your love. Of your friendship. Of your compassion. Oh! weak soul that I am. When shall I be faithful? When will I treat you like my own? My sorrow is unending for those nails I pierce you with daily. For all is you. I deserve to be in the desert. Alone and wandering aimlessly, but still you allow me to see Your Shadow beside me, letting me know I am never alone. Forgive this weak heart of mine. Allow me to come sit with you in the garden after such misdeeds as I have shown you. To tell you that I'm sorry. To comfort you the way you comfort me. 

     Dear friend. Let me walk with you. Let me tell you I love you and that I'm sorry. Let me always remember you are in every face that I see. Every heart that holds its own personal passion. 

     Dear friend, help me to be the kind of friend to you that you are to me. Let me pick you up and comfort you as you have done for me. Drive my heart to Total Love. Show me the way, again and again. Help me to be patient with you as you are with me. Help me dear friend, to understand and live the way you taught me. Help me. Allow me to have you call "me"  "your" dear friend.