THE PATH FROM THE PAST

    Ever wonder WHY? Why do I still do what I do and feel the way I do? Why do I still CAVE IN to those addicting habits that make me hate myself for being so weak? Weak, and now unhealthy, walking a slow walk to Calvary and death.    
    Asking this morning again, 'why do I still do what I do?' Answers came, for we are told when we seek, we will find, and when we ask, answers will be given. Knock and God will open the door and His Light and Healing will come in.

   I was led to 'go back' and see the connections of how the past truamas were keeping me living on that path of addictions. 
 The past traumas, hurts, rejections, abuse--all that I experienced as a child, still are within, and as long as they are, these emotions will lead to seeking comfort, and what gives me comfort.
    Therefore, it is time for me, and to give voice too, or write down all that came my way and left us wondering, wandering in the WHY past paths.  Do this, if I want to be WELL, healed of my addictions. 
    Some of the things we experienced, we will even blame ourselves! You know, if only I had been a better person, not acted the way I did, etc --then people would not have said, done, or treated me the way they did. This is the reason why even now, we may continue to hate ourselves. "It's all l my fault!"

    Controlled by our addictions fed by the past, we now will find struggles with emotions and spiritual battles that depress us. Feeling deeply sometimes---"why bother to try again, start again, and strive to obey what God is saying do.  RISE, get off that past mat, walk in a new life and be well."
   So let the Word of God lead you to Path of New Life. Go back and FORGIVE all, including yourself.  If we realize that all people, controlled by their own past, did not know what they were doing when their actions deeply hurt you.
    Give all that past to your God!  You are able to this, when you see your life NOW, as a living sacrifice. For when we know the TRUTH --we are given wisdom, understanding, knowledge, and discernment, gifts from the Holy Spirit that come when He comes into our total life. Going behind locked doors, Jesus comes in with His Peace and the Holy Spirit, setting us free from the WHYS of all our life and free from the 'addictions' and behaviors we still hate and find in our present path. 
    Let us pray, "Come Holy Spirit and fill our hearts, our mind and our soul and give us all your gifts and power too---so we may love as Jesus loved and faithfully follow His Path to the Way the Truth and the His Light that lead to NEW LIFE FOREVER!" 

   Please and thank you God for being ever faithful and present in our lives and leading us on right paths every day.