IN THE STILL OF THE NIGHT
To Thee I Suffer
It is beyond our comprehension to know why some are chosen to suffer, while others are immune and go untouched, enjoying a life of extreme comfort. There are many us on our journey who do not have the luxury of good health and are in the abyss of an incurable disease; many years pass by, with continuous entrapment, as the body declines and wastes away.
Since my birth many years ago, my body has always been under-developed, with weakness in my bones and muscles. My immune system, is very weak to fight off the flu and other diseases. For me, it has been a constant struggle to have a positive outlook, when an infliction attacks my body. With prayer, and interior enlightenment , I have mastered my mind and heart to accept each ailment with patience and understanding.
For when the heart is in acceptance of an infliction, the heart becomes uplifted into a state of great peace, and knowingly you have been chosen for a journey, taking the place for someone else. This interior presence of grace is the influx of light from the Holy Spirit, penetrating the heart to the soul. This is a grace of endurance, a bridge of love and compassion creating a reservoir of contentment, penetrating the discouragement of the inflicted. With love, resentment falls away and encouragement takes hold. We embrace our dilemma each day, and live according to our capabilities, giving hope to us in our need.
As years pass by, we take each day as a gift, to bringing us closer to our Lord. For it is He, that speaks to our heart giving internal encouragement to lessen the fear
of the unknown.
Robert J Varrick
rjvarrick@gmail.com