Jesus, let's talk

     Talk to me Jesus. Your servant is listening. 

      Many times I say this and many times there's silence. I search in my thoughts but still, I don't hear His voice. I think to myself "am I unworthy of hearing your voice Jesus?" "Have I asked too much of you?" Then, after some moments of silence, He answers me. His response comes. "I am here". My soul is at once again content. Just knowing He is here with me suffices. 

     Many times He tells me to please step aside. So gentle is His voice. Helping me realize, that I have tried to intervene when only He needed to be present. But my actions and words have pushed Him back and He really wasn't able to do what was intended to be. After I have stepped aside, the power comes from above. Visible for all eyes to see and ears to hear. Woe to my pride, in assuming that His control was not enough. And thinking that the way I would handle it was the way it should be. I want to tell you, "I'm sorry Jesus". Sorry for all the times "you were" talking to me and I would not listen. Sorry, that I have missed so many opportunities to have "your will" be my will. 

     I must tell you "thank you" for every time you have spared me from despair or the hands of my enemies. For helping me endure pain and heartache in a mere fraction compared to the pain and suffering you had at the hands of my sins. 

     Speak to me Lord, and I promise to listen. Open my heart and ears to the words you say. Always make my will be your will. I promise to listen.