Do not harden your heart to Conversion

     Is God speaking to you? Is He calling you to Conversion? Every time we ignore His Holy words, we are hardening our hearts to True Redemption. So many times I confess the same sins over and over. Have I truly committed myself to Conversion in stopping my evil ways of gossip and lukewarmness? Have I truly tried to avoid all occasions of sin? Because my mind tells me they're not so bad and that I can always go to Confession? Woe to my feeble mind! Woe to my self-righteousness in thinking that God is not recording everything I do. I keep those vices nearby. They are not a warm blanket but a cold floor to which I lay and then plead for forgiveness. Promising, that I will not commit them again. Failing over and over again, because I do not allow my mind and heart to follow you oh Jesus. Forgive me. 

     We do not know the hour or time to which God will call us face to face to show us our greatest defeats. I hear this over and over again. Why is it not enough? Why do I keep prolonging my Conversion? It is my Pride. My selfishness that keeps me blinded from the Heavenly Realm of Heaven. But you always give me Hope my God. When I commit to that step of Conversion, I will see and hear clearly His Holy Saving words and feel His grace of Mercy upon me. May my Spirit always be so willing. Alas, my flesh is weak. I must call upon the Saints and sweet Angels of Heaven to help me see more clearly. 

     Each step may be small to us, but oh, how giant in the eyes of God. Our stubbornness will only bear fruit that is worthless. Only in the commitment to changing our evil ways can we dwell in the House of God. Oh that these words ring out to my ears and heart always! 

     Purgatory is a place of cleansing. It must not be taken lightly. We will suffer, because of our refusal to convert our ways, our evil ways, now while still living on Earth.

     Hasten not oh Lord my desire for Conversion. Grant me the Grace to complete my Love for You by denying that which always takes me away from You. May I listen and heed your Holy direction and may I come one day, not with sorrowful heart, but with the Joy that I listened and converted to a Holy and Loving life before I died. 

     In Jesus Christ's Holy Name, I pray.