Dealing with Adversity

     Definition: facing tough times, difficult situations, or misfortune like hardships, trouble or suffering. 

     Adversity for me, in the way I handle it, is so difficult in itself. Because I take things to personally. Rejection struggles with my heart in a tender but bitter way. I pray for God to give me the Grace to accept it with Humility and openness but when it happens, my Spirit spirals to the point that is lower than the rejection itself. My feelings are hurt and I walk upright like it didn't phase me, but deep inside, my heart aches at the sting and then I promise myself that I will be more fervent in my choices and withdraw like a hermit in the loneliness of a cave. God keeps reminding me though, that He wants me all to Himself. First and foremost and that that person or situation was taken by me with the intention of "me" first. In my Humility, I must ask for His forgiveness in my desire to be accepted when rejection is a Grace straight from Heaven. Adversity, I've come to realize, is a gift. A gift to be used in total Surrender to the Will of God. Something that seems to be a thorn in my side when trying to learn. Wisdom comes when I listen and not just read the words God sends my heart. To actually produce His knowledge in the meaning He is trying so very hard to teach me. Oh God! Grant me this grace!

     The dark times are actually a great light to our advantage, if we truly are to be called Sons and Daughters of God. This, in my baby steps of learning, always helps me in my awareness of His great Presence in my life. I fall and I get up in His Holy Name and He sees me through my struggle. Always coming to my rescue and not leaving me in that dreaded unrest of the "pity party" I have put myself into. People will always disappoint you, but He never will. People will always leave you, but He never will. He is infinite. This I must stamp deeply in my heart and try my hardest to not disappoint or leave Him. It is only then that my steps will be soft and my burdens light. Focusing on Him instead of me. This is my true desire. 

    Like the definition of Adversity ends with, "it's something one can overcome with Courage", and Courage to me is a great step toward Heaven. This I must remember always. Oh God! Instill this in my soul and comfort my heart with your Peace. This I ask in the name of Jesus Christ. Amen