There's just some people like that

     You've probably met one, or maybe some people who walk around with a sneer on their face. No matter what the Holiday or event they will still walk in or sit there like they wish they weren't there. No matter how much you smile at them, they just can't manage to smile back. I've met many. One in particular. From the time I've met her, which now goes to about 18 years, she cannot seem to be happy. It has been a rare time, when I saw her break a smile and my heart was so elated. Telling me, she does have it in her. She has children, Grandchildren ,good health, lots of money, but she just cannot seem to have Happiness. At least she does not show it. I've seen her from up close. I've seen her from afar. She still has that grumpy, horrible sneer on her face as if she wished she didn't even exist. Makes me sad for her. I pray for her. Pray that she will change before it's too late. Pray that the sneers and the grumpy words will not affect her children or grandchildren or friends. That the words that come from her mouth will be thought out more, realizing they are hurtful. She's helping me. Whether she even realizes this. Every time I feel like I cannot manage a smile, I think of her and how I feel when she doesn't smile back. Maybe I've been that way, to people. I'm sure there has been many that walk away, thinking the way I feel about her. That makes me sad. That makes me want to change. 

    I don't know everything that's going on in her life, so that is her out. I wanted to give up on her many many times, but I know God doesn't give up on me. I must keep telling myself, "there's just some people like that", and keep trying. Just as I hope people will keep trying with me. 

     She's Catholic. So there's hope. Her husband died of alcoholism and her four boys struggle with it also. She's alone in that big beautiful house, staring at four walls and her solitude. Her age is creeping in slowly yet. Still, I believe there is hope. My prayer for her is to someday realize all the gifts God has blessed her with and to surrender to Jesus her hurts, her wants, her wounds, her humiliations, her trials. Maybe she does, without relief. I don't know. Therefore, I pray God gives me the grace to keep trying with her. Maybe He's telling me that I must surrender, my "fix it" trait, that lies so deeply within my being. He does always have to tell me to step aside, so that He can do His work. The only work, that really matters. 

     There are just some people like that. My prayer for myself, will be to never ever become so much like them and to always have the Face of Jesus. I have my days, I will not deny. I have a long way to go and pray people will pray for me also, if they ever see me becoming like this. 

     God loves everyone. May I see them all with His eyes, and in their struggle to be happy, see us all also through "His" eyes.