Don't take it personally

    I get so bent out of shape when someone hurts my feelings. I go into the mindset that they aren't seeing it my way or that my opinion doesn't matter. Thinking that my way is the highway. I drive down that road feeling alone and confused after my feelings have been hurt. Ah! "Maybe that road wasn't the right road", my Guardian Angel always ends up telling me. Whispering gently in my ear, to let him show me the right path. I fight him, telling him  "no, this one is easier". But always concluding that the easy road is not always the best road. God's road always ends up being the smarter road, even though those detours were a little scary. He (my angel) always sees me to the end of my trip. Making me realize once again, I took it too personally. Trying to go it alone. But ending up calling out an SOS for visibility on that foggy path I was traveling on. 

     My encouraging intentions in the words and adages that I try to speak to others, are finally put to the test in my own life. Seeing if I can truly "Walk The Walk" that I tried to talk. Living in humility and courage takes only two things. Surrender and Trust.

     Sometimes I get so low, I can't see the path of surrender and it scares me. Thankfully, I'm rescued by the hand of God and he clears my path and helps me to my feet. It can be a long process or a short one, depending on how long I want to remain stubborn. I'm feisty, so a lot of times it takes much longer than it should as I persist in my little "pity party", refusing to accept the way things have already been planned out for me by the One who created me, with the thought of my being, that became real from the start of Creation. I must remember, that we are all not just passing thoughts in the mind of God. We are realities that came into existence because He loves us. Our purpose in existing is to Honor and Glorify and serve Him constantly.  Giving Him our whole being, leaving nothing for ourselves, except our service. 

    For Lent, I'm giving up, "pity partying". The self-made ego of mind and surrender all things to the Guardianship of the One who died for me. The One who was willing to show me that taking it personally has two meanings. One being self and the other being God's. I choose God's.