God's Wisdom Is What I Seek

He, who gets wisdom, loves his soul...Prov 19:8

   Is wisdom something you receive when you get a certain age? Does wisdom gradually begin to appear like gray hair or yet another wrinkle? It seems that human wisdom comes with age but God's wisdom seems to be given to those who are submissive and obedient to God's law of living. Children seem to be gifted with a wisdom and insight fare beyond there years. Perhaps for these little ones they can sense God's wisdom easily because their hearts are open to His presence with childlike wonder and awe.

     Life experiences both good and bad are good teachers for acquiring wisdom. I chose to go down paths that led me away from God and His Church. God watched and did not intervene as I journeyed on this path filled with self-seeking and self-reliance. God did not abandoned me, but it was I who moved away from Him. I know now that God never stopped loving me even while I was in the depths of my sin.

     At the end of my journey, I surrendered my life over to Him. It was through my painful experience of living without God, that I have come to know deeply God's mercy and God's forgiveness. I know what it is like to live without God in my life. Through this experience, I know now that I never want to be apart from God and His love. Experiencing the anguish of this personal hell has taught me that it is essential to learn God's wise ways of loving myself and others.

     How do I incorporate God's wisdom into my life? I seek to know God more intimately through the Sacraments of the Church, especially the Sacraments of Reconciliation and the Sacrament of the Eucharist. I seek to know God in celebrating and participating in the highest form of pray which is the Holy Sacrifice of the Mass. In the Mass, I enter into eternity and I am in the presence of God the Father, God the Son and God the Holy Spirit surrounded by all the angels and saints. I can open my heart and mind to embrace the Word of God proclaimed.

   I seek to know God in prayer and meditating on His Holy Word. I seek to know God in spending time with my brothers and sisters through sharing our faith journey together.

     I pray that I may remain faithful to Jesus Christ my Lord and my Savior no matter how my faith is tested. He alone is my salvation. He alone is my stronghold. I shall not be moved when the storms of doubt and fear flood my soul. I will stand on the Rock of My salvation and be at peace.

     My pray is that I choose each day to seek God's wisdom in living my life. I've tried my way and it led to a dead-end street called despair. I am now attempting with all my heart, to choose God's wisdom. Sometimes I fail and fall short of living my life according to God's way. But Jesus picks me up, cleans me up and encourages me to continue on the path of wisdom and righteousness. I am experiencing more and more joy and peace even in the midst of storms but always arrayed with a beautiful rainbow to give me that childlike hope as I journey onward to my Heavenly home.