With all that is going on in life, our country, the world--and in my personal life---from the depts of my heart ---I feel strongly---AARRRGH!!!!! Not really--more like a perpetual litany of "God help us, have mercy on us."
An all WISE God knows just what to do to get to the root of my litany of 'ugh-sigh-weary of coughing-and yuck with this life."
The trigger this time was really out of the dark. I had stepped outside with the 'boys', my dogs for a final potty call. The moon was just rising and as usual very beautiful. These words came to my mouth. "I do not care how often I see you rising dear moon---you are always so beautiful. And then the tears and overwhelming sadness flooded my being.
Walking back to my 'God place/writing area/spiritual books' I opened to "LISTEN" and read for this day. "You can never lose, for I love you so."
"Lose" jumped out at me and I started to write of all the things in my life that I felt I was losing, leaving me lost as the 'shadows of life' passed between me and the Son.
Loss of identity as aging changes who I was. No longer a working woman and all those hats I wore are on the shelf of my memory.
No longer raising those children or active in their lives. No longer the young wife--but more a partner in caring for each other.
Energy level lower, and ability to go and do more limited by our bodies--so loss of the adventurous travel/outdoors life and scenery. (We still go sometimes but are sure glad to come home. Sitting for too long gets harder with age.)
It didn't take long for God to bring up all that I was grieving over in my 'losses'. BUT it did not take but a 'blink of an eye' for the Holy Spirit to pop right in with the realization that for everything lost; much was gained as we are gifted by the grace of God. And then this word--"TRANSFIGURATION"---was given. With every second, every step we are being transformed into the image of the Son as we give ourselves in total trust to His careful molding Hands.
Every step we take, we lose or leave behind a part of our life--as we step forward into the ADVENTURE of LIFE!! A life that can only be an adventure as we walk closely with our Savior--second by second. We are in His constant Presence and LOVE only when we are open to that Presence and His love. Eyes focused on all that is good and God--and at deep peace and contentment trusting that 'everything gonna be alright.' God is good, God is faithful, God is merciful, God is forever in us, around us, before us and preparing the place/step to come into our life.
As for that moon, the next morning she was shining bright still as the dogs and I went for our celebration of life in the back yard. I noticed the shape less than last night---and was reminded that ALL of the MOON was still there--just some hidden by the earth's shadow. Just as the sun is ever present---no matter how dark the clouds covering it --or the Son is blocked by the WORLD or its dark ways.
Let us humbly be used daily by God, serving and surrendering more and more. Let us become less and lose that self controlling personality and be transfigured into a image of God's love---radiating the LIGHT of the SON as the moon does faithfully night by night. Then as we rise, or rather as the Glory of God rises within---oh how beautiful we are to the world.
This is the last day of September, 2018--let us live and celebrate whatever, where ever we can ---for when this day is gone--it is gone-and all the opportunities to serve God will be lost. I can only imagine hearing each 'day' say as it is over--"I am so out of here--these people are losing it." :)