Thus Will I Test Them
Cain't and Able
Photo By: Flickr/Anita Hart
A long time ago, a perfect man and a perfect woman, became discontented with their perfect world and wanted more. So a very wise Creator—allowed more to come into their world.
The now less than a man, and less than the woman they were created to be—were gifted with two sons—Cain’t and Able. Because the sons came into the world from ‘Less than they used to be’ parents—the brothers also were having to deal with discontent—well only one really—Cain’t. He saw how his brother “ABLE” was given the ability to not only do good, but to do really good in all that he did. This made the brother Cain’t mad, jealous and up to no good. One day, because he detested Able so much he decided to be rid of him, to take him out of his life. He killed him, and buried him---or so he thought. But Able being the good, loving brother rose up within Cain’t and said to him. I will always be a part of you for I am your brother who loved you. If you choose, you can learn from me and then be ABLE to do all I did and even more. But instead of choosing to love, Cain’t stayed marked forever by his guilt, bitterness and resentment, and traveled on carrying this look on his face of the painful struggle within.
This is our story too, we all struggle with the good and negative emotions within. A part of us we love and a part we hate, or as Father R. Rohr describes our true self, our false self. Unless we choose to stay connected with LOVE and walk with the Wisdom of love and walk in LOVE'S WAY—we too will be marked outwardly by our inner pain and struggle daily to bury that hurt within. Until we scream out--I CAIN'T live this way anymore and change. It is then that we will be ABLE--able to do all things through God who created us.
About the Author
Born the youngest of nine children, raised VERY Catholic across the street from our church and school—Mom and Dad led by example and word their FAITH in God and saw to it that I was given 12 years of Catholic Education. (Mount St. Mary’s Academy/1965)
But, most importantly, because of my parents’ spiritual renewal after attending Cursillo Weekends, I too went on a retreat at our beloved Subiaco Abbey in Arkansas and there, at age 20, gave my life totally, surrendering all to my Lord and best Friend. This was my “Pentecostal” event that left me, like all the early Christians, on fire with God’s love and forever changed.
My husband Robert and I have been married for 50 this year in a marriage arranged by God. We have 8 children, two in heaven, 24 grandchildren, and 15 great-grandchildren. The story of our life together can be found in a book titled “My Journey, My Cross-As the Journals End,” published by Westbow Press . Our life together has been one awesome up and down roller coaster ride which enriched my heart with so many of the gifts of the Holy Spirit. I have found that the only way, Wisdom, Understanding, Words of Knowledge, Discernment, and Healing can be received is first by experiencing in your life the hurts of others. (and you yourself a sword will pierce)* so that the thoughts of many hearts may be revealed.” Luke 2 v 35.
God has blessed me also many other talents and skills--but sometimes, blessings/gifts can and have caused problems or conflict in my life, as I am human and all too quickly that part of me shows up. Thank You God that You also show up!
Because of the many ways that He has rescued me, and taught me through my trials and tribulations and continuous cries for “Help”--- a weekly podcast radio show called “It’s Me, God” can still be found on www.radiotitans.com
